I've stayed away from the evil drink for just over sixteen weeks now and I must admit that the feelings of pride and pleasure that I would normally experience, having been off the drink for so long are drifting away. Perhaps there is a little boredom involved as it is no longer a problem - or so it seems, is that really part of the trap?
At least I am aware that when you have a problem with alcohol, you have to remain on your toes, it's just too easy to see yourself as "Cured" or no longer an alcoholic.
Ha, bullshit!!!
I am an alki and will be for the rest of my life. It will continue to drift away but the problem will still exist and the traps will continue to appear. I have to remain aware of that, I can, in no way, allow myself to forget that.
I bought some cans of coke today and when I got home they went straight into the fridge. I'm looking forward to one, nicely chilled.
The strongest I drink now.
At least I am aware that when you have a problem with alcohol, you have to remain on your toes, it's just too easy to see yourself as "Cured" or no longer an alcoholic.
Ha, bullshit!!!
I am an alki and will be for the rest of my life. It will continue to drift away but the problem will still exist and the traps will continue to appear. I have to remain aware of that, I can, in no way, allow myself to forget that.
I bought some cans of coke today and when I got home they went straight into the fridge. I'm looking forward to one, nicely chilled.
The strongest I drink now.
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